A year goes by and I can't talk about it..

I found my old phone today, you know the one that got taken away for that $1200 phonebill. The phone I talked to you with when we were miles apart, the phone I cried over with you, the phone that recieved romantic pictures of where one day we would live. The same phone I used to call you that night I thought I was going to die. The phone I used to text you dirty things in class. The phone I had glued to my head that night your grandpa died, I had it glued to the side of my head for 4 days straight. That same phone I fell asleep on while talking to you, only to wake up in the morning and hear your breathing. I guess it was a bad thing finding that phone. I flipped through it only to find pictures of you smiling. You know, that same smile that once made me melt, i'm sure it still would if we lived closer to eachother. It's sad because I always wanted a friendship with you, I loved you so much I never thought I would be able to live without you. I guess you proved me wrong, I can live without you, but that dosnt mean that it dosnt hurt. The effort I've put in to call, text, even try to meet up with you. Only to be shutdown. I get it, you have your life, your average girlfriend who honestly could never live up to me. That's fine. You've told me this. But while you're going on living your country fantasy life and you have everything you've ever wanted dont forget the one girl who helped you through the rough patches, who stayed up 48hours with you, who missed school to make sure you were alright even though we live an hour away. When you'd call I'd run out of class and pick up, I'd never miss a call, i was ALWAYS there for you. You were always there for me too and I'll never forget that. You got me through a lot. Just dont forget what I've done for you. I gave all of myself to you and you just dont seem to remember. All I wanted was to see you, you were 20min away, the shortest distance away we've ever been. If I were in your situation I would have ran, instead you went along with your life. Did you know that when I entered your city that one day I teared up a little. Remember the days we said we would live there, you'd work and I'd never have to worry about me because you loved me and you would always and forever take care of me. Remember when we broke up only because the distance was hurting us both and you said you'd always love and you's always be there for me. You lied. So many songs I can't listen to till this day, a whole year later because of you.
I'm over it all now though, I just had to type that out, I'll know you'll never read this. Im happy for you and your girlfriend and your family. I hope all is well.